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Also My Love

loveAlso My Love

Love leaves my fingertips
like a memory blazing through
and lighting up the night sky

It sits in me
like a heavy burden
thick and moving
through almost everything

Actually, everything.

It is a lump
laden with aching possibility
and a pain
addictive and slow

I want to run from it

and bury myself deep within it

in the very same exhale.

I am sick with it
With its clawing and cloaking
and the way it sticks

I am covered and coveting
I am desperately alone with it.

I go to share it
yet it is so thick and
so heavy and
so hard to hold,

that I retreat.

If I could shape my love
into the perfect mould,
one that I could carry with pride
and sparkling eyes,

it would be easier for you to know.

It fills me with the deepest and darkest of reds,
I wonder if it really is beautiful..
Or is it tinged with too much sorrow?

I could unwrap it from its makings
of shame and pain and scratches,
but it would pour through to your heart

and taint it with my mournful stitching.

I dream of someone
touching my love
with soft forgiving fingers
and hopeful harmless hands

But it is futile.

Because as soon as you will reach for it
it will bleed
and there will be puddles of leaky love

all around us on the floor.

I shall dive in deep and do some mending
but these thorns grow with me now
A part of me that cannot be smoothed

with simple whispered sweet nothings.

Instead my love will burn
brightest in vulnerability
flickering here and there
at other messy moments.

Still something here is beautiful
A heart breaking
is a heart breaking open

and I widen those cracks now.

You see it don’t you?

Just where the light gets in,

there are memories
and music
and soft breezes

That, is also, my love.

{ 2 comments… add one }
  • Kris February 1, 2017, 1:26 am

    You are magic, your words are incredible.
    Thank you for sharing your heart xxx

    • megang February 1, 2017, 5:27 am

      Thank you for reading my words beautiful woman. And it is an honour for you to witness my heart. Love you x

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